We sit on front porches and swing life away.

Valentines day is going to be a horrible day.
it's just a reminder that i have such a long wait until i can accually find somebody to share it with.
I hope that the love of my life plans something special.
Because whoever he is, better have been worth the wait. because i'm sick of waiting.
I know that i'm not gonna fall in love now, because young love is stupid.
That's what driving me to insanity.
The Wait.
I'm counting the days untill i turn eighteen.
I just sucks that things have to be this way.

I hate living in this house.
If i didn't love my school, my mom, and my room i would leave. At least my stepmom faked liking me, my stepdad treats me like shit. I can't stand it anymore.

So if you heard of a teenager that has never done/seen/touched drugs, never smoked a cigarette, never had any sexual relations with anyone, never been drunk, never partied, why would you want to take everything that makes them happy away from them? What would be your reasoning?

I don't get it. I just don't. I haven't done anything wrong, and my stepfather has taken everything away from me. All i'm left with is my art and my mom. He took away my music, my television, my computer, my everything. It's just burning me to the core because i know i deserve better. I'm a straight A, clean highschool student. I should be able to do the things i want. But for some odd reason i'm not allowed. I haven't done anyhting wrong. The only flaw i'm missing out of the "perfect child picture" to me is that i don't have a religon. I just don't. It's something that has never occured to me to be important. I never did anything else.

I hate it when people try to force their religon on me. i don't care about what you believe in, that's not going to affect the way i like you, or my judgements about you. If you love god, then great! if you don't, that's great tooo.

I'm rotting from the inside out. I don't know how much more of this i can take.