*i think that would ruin my head,
*if someone ruined my real thoughts.*): i've let two people in. one has understood.. but still has sooo much to learn.
*my real thoughts are disgusting. i disgust myself.
*i try to block them outt.*mine do too. they don't feel right. but what people call "right" might not always be right.
*what were the two people?*____. and _____. *______ has a lot to learn.*alllot.*are you sure you want to let him learn?
*distance is a horrible thing.
*i know, trust me.*im not letting him.*i have yet to let people there. mostly because, there is just so much, crammed in that small part of my brain. it would take hours to release it.
*who wants to waste their time listening to my thoughts anyways?*thats what im saying.. or atelast feel like.. *yeah. it's funny, i write things, that sound really good when i'm thinking about stuff.
*i wish i could have the ability to write like that in english.
*in english i'm stumped for words, but when i'm at home and thinking about things... it's just easy. i should just write a book. *ive thought about it tooo.*someday, i'll look through my secret blog, and i'll turn the posts into a book.*writing a book.
*yyyes.*that's the only reason i keep that thing.
*it's not tumblr.
*but i will.
*someday. when i'm old, and i can publish a book.
*a book that teenagers could relate to.
*a book that kids like us need.*god. everyone will suck when were old.
*at the rate its going.*yeah.
*doesn't it feel nice, to know that you're not the only one that afraid of their own mind? it gives me reassurance.
*for a long time i thought i was the only one.
*other kids our age: ' omg jersey shore! did you know that so and so is dating her? DID THEY REALLY SLEEP TOGETHER.' Us: What is happening. Where am i going. What is the meaning of this world.
*us, or maybe it's just me.*us.*:')
*i was sitting in class. just laughing at what runs through the minds of the girls our age.*seriously.. *this one girl today, she made my day.
*she was talking about jersey shore and i was laughing.
*and she's like what? and i was like, i just think jersey shore is stupid.
*and she laughed and agreed.
*then she went on to tell me that knowing little about me, she liked my personality.
*she said that iwas that girl that 'didn't give a fuck.'
*but i wasn't rude like the other people like that.
*i was the creative and happy kind.
*it made my day.*mhhm. im sure
*who was itt?*some girl.
*in my photography class.
*i don't remember her name
*ahhhhhhhhhh
i love my best friend so much. i didn't have anywhere else to save this conversation, this is the only place i can hide from everything.