What is happening.

Why am i stupid? I wished. and wished. and wished. and now i'm panicking, because you asked me out for dinner? that's a strange offer but i guess what do you do in the evening.
Just the two of us?
Mmm. straaaaaaange.
I think i'll do it.
I'll ask my mom for some money.
And we'll go out to dinner.
Why not?
:s

I miss you.

Why do i miss you all the time?
It's not fair.
Every day at 11:11am/pm i wish that you would send me an email asking to see me.
oddly enough if i do it enough times in a row it works!
I wish you would email me.
I think that you're the best person in my life, even if you aren't staying in my life.
I'm afraid that school will start and you won't talk to me anymore.
If you dissapear i don't know what i'll do.
I miss you because you listen to what i have to say when nobody else will.
I miss you because you never fail to make me smile.
I miss you because you are the only one that lifts me up when i'm on rock bottom.
I miss you because you get concerned if i post awful things on facebook.
I miss you because you are the only flawless adult i know.
I miss you because you have yet to crush me like everyone else has.
I miss you because you have the wildest most adorable children that also never fail to make me smile.
I miss you because you would care if i killed myself.
I miss you because you are the only one that has convinced me that maybe things will be okay.
I miss you because you accually care.
I just miss you okay.
So could you email me?
Even though i'm talking to nobody i hope that you know somehow just how much i miss you.
I'm so pathetic.