It would be interesting to have an adult accually listen to the things teenagers have to say.

But what do we know, right?

I wish i wasn't forced to go to Church. I don't like it. It doesn't make me happy. They just sing annoying songs. No disrespect if you enjoy it, but what do you expect? . I don't get why someone that doesn't believe in religion at all has to go to Church? It's not very fair on my part. But then again, until the day i turn eighteen do I really have a choice?

I started drawing a guitar on friday. It's still not finished. I drew it blue because the guitar you played that day was blue. That's your guitar. And I can't stop thinking about next year, and getting to see you every day. But I realized that next year, the person i love to see every-school-day, will be gone. i'll never see him again.

I feel like i'm talking to nobody. I doubt anybody accually reads my blog. That would be unacceptable. I don't expect people to read it. But it would be interesting if people did, just so i could feel heard. Think about if an adult were to talk to you like you talk to your friends. When i say adult i don't mean therapist or parent, but just an adult. Would they think you're crazy? Messed up? Insane? Just a teenager with mixed emotions? I'm very curious. It would be interesting to find out their thoughts, on my mind and wether or not i'm messed up.

I want to be an art teacher. I want to inspire people to do art. I want to teach great things to highschool students. Especially the ones that have potenial. Art is my thing, it's what makes me happy. Maybe it's the thought that i'll never be left with nothing. When everything else has failed me, art has always been there. Art has never hurt me, Cheated on my mom, Screwed me over, Abandoned me, Art is perfect in it's own little way. When i'm left with absolutely nothing, it's a nice feeling that you'll have something down inside of you. I want to be an art teacher because my art teachers have inspired me, gotten me invovled in the things that i now love. It's a nice thought to think that you could change someone's life just by offering them a pencil and some sketch paper. Art has changed my life for the better. It's kept me away from drugs, alchol, sex, addiction, all of that kind of stuff. When i'm sad, happy, angry, i can vent via art.


Monophobia : Fear of being alone.