My mom

Just asked if me if my room was clean.
This would have been normal if she wasn't fresh out of surgery and sleeping.

That was scary.

My mom was supposed to be gone for two hours. She was gone for four. It would have been okay if she wasn't gone to surgery.
She misscarried last month. There was some mystery with her pregnancy. Beause she was misscarrying and her blood still read pregnant. They thought she might have a tube baby.
Turns out, it was a tube baby.
There was a tiny clot of what could have been a baby caught in her ovarie.
She left at two thirty, and I was scared that she wasn't coming back.

She finally came back, at six. Now my stepdad and her are cuddling and I'm hungry. I want food, and to go home.

Now we're not going anywhere?

This is stupid. My stepdad is more concerned about him sleeping and goingto work tomorrow to deal with my mom. He upset her and won't admit it. What a sick, twisted poor excuse for a man. My mom was on the floor weeping for an ambulence and he comes by and says, "Comon, I'll drop you off at the hospital," I wish he'd just die.
Wishing death upon someone isn't nice, but he shouldn't treat my mom like this.
If she dies tonight, idont know what I'd do.
What a perfect way to start my summer, i'm grounded for a week, there was a tornado, I'll miss school & my teachers, I haven't slept in three days and my mom is getting sicker?
I'm just praying that things get better.

This has been a roller coaster of a day,

Starting with John screaming and ending with no sleep and me sitting, waiting to go to the hospital. My stepdad upset my mom, and she's still sick. She's been up and about for an hour now and she needs someone to go with her.
I know it's the right thing to do, so I'll do it since John won't. I haven't slept in like three days.
This sucks.

Last day of school.

Breathe. No tears. No pain. Everything is going to be okay.

Summer is gonna suck.

I hate not going somewhere for a full day.
I can't wait until I'm old enough to drove and have my own car.
Then I could just leave,
But until then I'm stuck.
And it sucks.

The heart of life is good.

So I was irritated and sick at CFD today. I sat during a silly hypnotist assembly by myself with my face on the ledge.
Mrs.Brooks walks by and asks me if I'm alright. I shrug and say nah. She says okay and I finish by saying, thanks for asking.

Then after school, I sat in my normal spot. I was chewing on my finger vigourously. if I would have continued, I probably would have bled. I don't know why I was chewing on it, but I was. Mrs.Brooks comes out and even though she's on the phone, she asks me again if i'm alright. I say yes, and that I would tell her if something was wrong. I smiled my largest smile when she said, "okay, call if you need to."
I wanted to cry.